Let’s backtrack a bit to get into our story:
NOVEMBER 2, 2014
The night before I was about to go back to work, I wrote the following post. I had been an emotional wreck for two weeks, trying everything to not have to go back to work. I was even plotting to try to get pregnant again or how to get our finances to work if I stayed home for the rest of the school year. I had just fallen in love with being home for six months with my son. Then, with a week left to go back, a friend said to me that although it is difficult, she tried to enjoy and savor every second during that last week at home, instead of getting caught up with wishing things were different. That is exactly what I did. The night before returning to work, I wrote…
As I am about to embark on this next step of life, it’s amazing to see how many lessons/opportunities a little person who can’t even talk yet can teach us. I’m not saying you need a child to learn these but instead, I am saying that this is truly what I needed in order to grow as a person.
These last six months have changed my life in ways I never knew existed. While I usually only post millions and millions of pictures on here, I rarely post thoughts except corny ones on birthdays and anniversaries because honestly I’m too much of a thinker/reflector and could ramble on every day. However, these past six months of staying home with my amazing little guy have flown by way too fast and I find it way too amazing not to share.
Lesson/opportunity 1) While I love routines, agendas and my infamous to-do lists, I’ve learned that it’s so important to take it day by day, moment by moment because we are never promised tomorrow with anyone or anything. Enjoy each moment because it may be a first or a last.
Lesson/opportunity 2) Asking for help and advice is not a weakness instead it’s the complete opposite, an incredible strength.
Lesson/opportunity 3) I’ve learned the true value and importance of family and friends while also receiving the opportunity to meet and become friends with some great new people. I would tag all of you but it would drag this out even longer.
Lesson/opportunity 4) No one is perfect, no matter how much you try. So let go of that and embrace and even laugh at imperfection because after all, imperfection is what makes us our own sense of “perfect. ”
Lesson/opportunity 5) No matter who tells you that you can’t do something or even doubts you for a second, anything is always still possible if you put your whole heart, soul and dedication into it. That’s something no state test can teach. I don’t remember much from middle school and high school except some of the words of encouragement from one or two of my teachers along the way. That is what kept me going even in moments when I had every reason not to. I still plan to do everything in my power to pass this on to my students while also having my own little six month student too. He has taught me to keep smiling and laughing through even the tough times because you are always being watched and learned from even when you aren’t speaking a single word.
Lesson/opportunity 6) The beauty of a snow day- I am looking forward to snow days. For once in my teaching career, I will not get pissed at fellow teachers for hoping for snow. Instead, I look forward to these days as extra time with my little cutie.
Lesson/opportunity 7) Things have changed but change isn’t so scary after all. I may no longer shop or read for myself much anymore, but I love shopping and reading for the little guy. My body may not be and may never be what it use to be but that’s okay because it created an amazing little person.
Lesson/opportunity I’ve learned unconditional love is indescribable in words but the most incredible thing to feel.
Lesson/opportunity 9) Advice and theories will be given to you all the time and much, if not most, will be critical. You can’t take it to heart, instead allow it to go in one ear and out the other. You must do what works best for you and your family. That’s all that matters.
Lesson/opportunity 10) Don’t get caught up in the “what ifs.” Life’s too short to worry about “what if” I use the wrong type of sleep training … “What if” my student growth percentile doesn’t meet the state’s standard… (And the other trillion daily “what ifs”) Instead, do everything with your whole heart and trust in God and everything will fall into the exact place it’s meant to.
Last but never least, thank you to my amazing husband for being the greatest father and role model for our son as well as my rock and best friend. And thank you to my little love for carving that everlasting smile in my heart.
Little did I know when I wrote that, that I would soon be taught even more than I ever thought I could imagine. While I wasn’t ready, he just continued to smile on…